...Sloth, huh.

It's so quiet lately. I can even hear the cockroaches moving around.

I'm bored. Maybe I should like...leave the house.

Need more cigarettes anyway.

She's gone it seems. I haven't heard her obnoxiousness in awhile. I'm actually relieved. Now there's only one major problem here.

I've been busy. Nice to know one can not notice when a month passes here. Maybe I'm too accustomed to life here now.

Claire, I have candy for you. And I think I may sneak on over if you'd like.

After that...I'm going out for awhile again.

A day. Or three. Or a week. Or two. Or a month. I haven't decided. If anyone wants to actually tell me whats going on, just let me know. I'm going to chainsmoke like I've never chainsmoked, after I'm done throwing up.

I'm going to go out today. To the upper level. I need some cigarettes. And if I don't get them, I will be a very cranky Matt for many hours until I get them. It's for the better, really. For all of us. Maybe I'll take a walk after. No one wants cigarette smoke around the house as it is.

I don't even know who lives at the house anymore. So I guess whoever that's addressed to. Yeah.

Now tell me, if you find him, what will you do? Kill him? Throw him in Clalkoi? Make him way more unstable.

Hold him somewhere there? At your headquarters? Can you? The doors here have almost no locks anywhere. Heh...

B, what have you done?

So.

Job hunting again.

Because I'm pretty sure it'll only be a matter of days before I will quit. I absolutely refuse to work for him. I hate people who aren't Mello bossing me around. But at least Treize was remotely respectable.

Hmph.

[[ Strikes hackable to Mello & L ]]

Yeah, that was... I don't really want to do it again. Though hanging out with RJ was cool. I haven't heard from Buffy or seen her around since. And I've actually looked.

Do you think we annoyed her a bit when we went on our tirades about games? Actually, now that I think about it, the most annoying part was the ghosts and how I could actually see and hear them.

So, Mello, I'd hate to know what trouble you got into in three days without me. Yeah, really, I don't want to know. If you got yourself hurt again, I'm punching you when I see you. Not because you're a jerk for getting hurt, but because it'll make me feel better.

I need a cigarette.

Matt's off nerding it up with RJ and likely frustrating Buffy in the Urado house. ;)

Oh.

Really?

Good luck with that.

Near can be a jealous asshole on his own. I'm sick of being treated like dirt from him just because of some demented envy in relation to myself and Mello.

I know I'm not L, M, or N. I know I'm not one of you three, I know I'm out of the loop, and I know I'm "less important". You don't have to tell me that I'm "not one of you", that I'm "just a replacement". You've essentially negated my friendship with Mello, and expect me to bend over backwards. Expect me to step back.

I get it.

You're infatuated with Mello. I'm not blind. I can see it.

I died for someone I love and care about on someone's command, someone who is first in my world no matter how many times I've been made aware I'm not first in his.

But I am not obligated nor bound to anyone other than Mello.

I owe Near nothing to keep his secrets which he can barely keep himself. I do not have to listen to L. I am bound only to Mello.

I am not going to let myself get bullied by you, Near. Or whatever you're attempting to do. Idiot. You just don't get it, do you?

...I wonder.

( Private//Unhackable )

Mello only seems like a lecherous pervert. He's not really, though, I swear.

[ Voice post clicks on, you hear a moment's fumbling before he speaks up. The voice sounds rushed. ]

S-someone, tell me. Where am I? What is this place?

And tell me why all these strange people keep calling me Matt. -- Is that my name? I mea -- ...Who are they?

I don't understand. I just want to go back home...Wherever that is...

...Help me...please? I don't know what's going on. The hell is a computer doing here, too? This is a hellhole or something. Weird.

[ Voice Post clicks off. ]

[[ So one of the side effects of this poison is temporary amnesia, so for the next few days you have a very confused Matt. ^_^ ]]

-- VOICE POST, ACTIVATED --

[ Sounds really staticy. Matt's voice is is struggled. Like he's trying to breathe and just can't. ALso, seems to cut out randomly. ]

Mello I'm so --

should have listen -- you.

Home please.

Can you...-- find -- now.

Terminal -- please.

Sorry.

[ And a thud sound, and some more struggled breathing happens. ]

-- USER IS IDLE. ... ...VOICE POST, DEACTIVATED --

So, guys, I'm moving out. Already picked up my stuff.

I got a new job, too. I'm going to be busy for awhile. Sorry folks.

( Private to White Fang, Namely Treize & Mello // Unhackable )

( Private to Shion // Unhackable )

( Private to Self // Hackable to Mello )

Rain rain go away...

...come again some other day.

I've been picked on enough, does lightening have to strike so close to home, too?

...At least it can't strike in the same spot twice, right?

I don't think I can remember a time where I liked rain.